For all you know, you're one of the few people who have started a wave of doing a specific fetish that would become the norm sooner or later. Mind you, having absurd fantasies isn't something to be ashamed of. These weird fantasies, usually called fetishes, are sex acts that are not considered 'vanilla' or 'plain' by society's standards. It's not bad to explore things that other people don't normally do, especially when it comes to sex.
